Now I have another freaking cold! This is the third one I have had since October. I almost ran today, but managed to plant my butt on the sofa and watch football games I didn't care about anyway - all day. Kleenex all over the coffee table, yuk.
Yesterday I didn't run because I started teaching. Me! teaching! At the University from which I graduated. Well, actually I was co-teaching - they didn't throw me into a classroom alone. But I will give two lectures next class. These are classes that go from 8:30 to 4:00 every other Saturday for 10 weeks. I have two weeks to prepare two lectures. I bet I will be scrambling on the Friday night before the class... I know myself.
So, I have run 5 and a half miles so far this year. This is not what I had in mind. I am so confused about what I want to do. I may have given up on the marathon idea. I know how much time and determination that will take. I am not sure I have either right now.
I would love to do a bigger triathlon than a sprint. Bike riding is my favorite sport. Since I started running a lot, I hardly ever get on my bike. I saw folks riding today and thought about it, but I didn't do it. I am out of the habit. I also love swimming. Really, in the tri, running is my least favorite part.
But I also LOVE slow, long-distance running. It is something unlike anything else. It is meditative and wonderful. I haven't had a long run in a long time, maybe that is why I am not excited about it anymore. Last summer, there was nothing I looked forward to more each week than my 10 mile Saturday run (well, maybe a date with the "fellow"). Many weeks, he would come over just after my run, and I would make a big fuss about being drenched with sweat, my hair plastered to my head, etc., and he would just smile and say it was "sexy". Then I would get cleaned up and get on with the day - it was really great.
Winter is difficult for me. I have loved Denver so much because the winters aren't usually too trying. But the last two years have been different. We have had so much snow and cold weather. The streets haven't been clear for a long time. I get discouraged in this weather. Most years in the past, I have been able to ride my bike all year,with the exception of a few days.
Sorry for complaining. I am discouraged about my lack of motivation. I don't know what to do. Thanks for any advice you may have.