I followed my training schedule today and ran for 30 minutes. It was a lovely morning, the temperature was 62 degrees, and in 30 minutes I was able to run 2.37 miles, which is a pace of 12:50. That is information from my new super-deluxe Garmin Forerunner 305. I am going to stop looking at what my Nike + iPod says since it is obviously very wrong.
I am so grateful that I got this "ugly truth" teller before the race. I would have crumpled to the ground in profound dispair had I found out DURING the race that I am this slow. As it is, I will just go there with my head held high, knowing that I am doing all that I can with who I am today.
This is who I am. I am a 55 year old woman. I am healthy, I am strong, in spite of some pretty serious challenges. I am doing my best, and putting it out there on the line. I am not sitting at home talking about it, I am out there doing it.
This morning while I was running, I recalled something my ex-husband (the jock) used to say. "You get tired mentally before you get tired physically." I would think, "who cares? I am TIRED! It doesn't matter if it is mental or physical." but today I know that my major limitations are those imposed by my mind.
This is an incredible journey of self-discovery.