Mary, you have just run 6 miles. You have another 11 to go. Do you even want to do this? You want to run a marathon, but at what price? You COULD run the 4 miles back to the car and call 10 miles a good run. A good run if you are training for a half-marathon - not a full one. Then, on your Sunday afternoon, you COULD have your kids over for dinner. You COULD get your homework done for Biblical School and get ready for work tomorrow. Or, you could run 17 miles and go home and lay on the sofa.
So, here is what it came down to for me today:
Do I want to run with grim determination?
Or do I want to run with JOY?
The answer is JOY. I am going to run a half-marathon in Anchorage on June 21. I have an awesome vacation planned and I am going to enjoy it. When I look at the counter in my sidebar now, I am going to think - woo! hoo! ONLY XX days until vacation! I am not going to think "oh shit, I ONLY have XX days left to get ready to run a marathon.
I will likely get some crap from people for this, but ultimately, it is the woman in the mirror I most need to reconcile with. This training was feeling horrible. I feel lighter already. And, the last four miles I ran today, I REALLY ENJOYED. I haven't enjoyed running for a while now. This is good.