I thought I would include pretty pictures of my bruise and scars. (and you can see the impressions of the lovely knee-high fishnets I had on all day today.)
I went shopping after work tonight - for some furniture and some other stuff at REI. Then I went to the running store to get some shoes, but they were closed. So I will go tomorrow.
I did not run all week. I am scheduled for a 17 mile run this weekend. I guess I will wait until Sunday. I think this is the "do or die" run for my marathon training. If I can't do it, I am going to plan on running the half marathon in Anchorage. If I can run it, I guess I will know that I should continue with my training for a full marathon. Right now I am plagued with doubts and aches and pains.
I look at the counter on my side-bar and think - this should be something I am looking forward to, not dreading. But every time I see how few days are left, I just feel so much pressure. I don't know how I can be ready for a marathon in 50 some days.
I got an e-mail from my marathon mentor this week. It was meant to motivate me I am sure. It had just the opposite effect. She said she heard I was having doubts and she said "shame on you." and that people in MUCH worse shape than I finish marathons. Great.
I will go out this weekend and do my level best to run 17 miles. Some of you say that discouragement is typical half way through the training... I hope that is all this is.
Thanks for your encouragement and understanding.