Thursday, 18 October 2007

The Depression...

Showed up right on time. I wish the race photos were as reliable! No photos yet. I don't know why I care, because they are sure to be not so good.

I am leaving tomorrow for a weekend retreat in the mountains. It is sponsored by my Biblical School. I am greatly looking forward to it. I think the timing could not be better.

I am really depressed. I am sure I will be back to normal (whatever that is) within days, but for now, I am not having fun. I have been locked up in my office almost all week - closing my office door so I don't start swearing at people I just can't seem to tolerate suddenly. Thank God I have the ability to close my office door....

I haven't been out for a run yet since the race. The weather's been bad - and the lack of light is a huge factor. The other morning I was going to run, but I looked out the window at 6:00 a.m., and thought - no thank you, I am not running in the pitch black morning.

I am planning on running tomorrow before I leave for my retreat. I am sure it will feel quite good. Then I have to figure out what to do for a fitness plan. I went shopping tonight after work - who can go for a religious retreat without a new outfit? - and found that my normal size is tight. In fact, I bought a larger size because I do not want to deal with tight pants. Not even snug. I can deal with loose pants, and that is about it.

I should also be able to get a hike or two when I am in the mountains this weekend. It should be beautiful. I am sure to get over this funk-a-delic mood I am in.

11 comments:

Randy said...

Mary, good luck with your retreat, I'm sure that will take your mind off the post race doldrums....I just replied to your email from last week...sorry it took me so long to get back to you...be safe...hugs

Michelle said...

Oh, I hear you on the depression, Mary! I have been there for about a month now, mostly because I have been sick and am not getting 100 percent better. Major bummer for me.

Hang in there! I think we will both come out of this funk soon!

Lisa - Slow & Steady said...

Sounds like the retreat is timed perfectly for you.

Hang in there!!

Wes said...

Have a great trip. A l'il run will do ya good!

Jess said...

Feeling depressed is actually totally normal after a big race. You've spent months working otward one goal and thinking exclusively about it, and once it's over, it kinda feels like there's nothing to look forward to anymore.

However, the depression is usually temporary, so chin up, you'll feel better soon! Have fun on your retreat!

The One and Only Tigger said...

Mary, retreats like that are always good for reflecting on yourself. I am sure you will have a great time and return refreshed and have many goals setup for your fitness, and then can loose the new pants. that will be your excuse to shop for some more.

Mary Gee said...

LOL. I SO don't need an excuse to shop, but if you want to give me one...

J~mom said...

I hope the retreat is relaxing and helps you feel better. Shopping and a good run usually do the trick for me. :>) Have great weekend!

Marcy said...

(((HUGS))) Mary!!! Take care of yourself and enjoy your retreat!!

ws said...

hope you had a good weekend at the retreat, Mary and that you are feeling better.

Randy said...

Did someone mention shopping? Let's go.